Sunday, September 14, 2014
Here are how my Spiritual gifts ranked:
Apostle/Giving/Deeds of Power
I found it interesting that serving ended up on top, but I'm not surprised by it as I do tend to lean towards serving people and the Church. I was sort of surprised to see faith up there as high as it was because I haven't felt like my faith was strong at least not as strong as it was in college. The ministries that use my tops gifts also fit me, I do volunteer with social ministries, I have no problem doing mundane tasks. I am a lector, greeter, and Eucharistic minister and I would totally run and participate in Bible studies and take pictures of the events in the parish. CCD teacher, youth leader and teaching are stuff I do already and I've often said I would love to teach the teachers, so it was nice to have my gifts and ministries reaffirmed. I would love to find a way to get paid to do all this stuff, but that will come I guess.
Hopefully there will be more to come on this later but for now I am off to read for class ;)
So this week's reading is from Matthew's Gospel. What comes to mind is the idea of praying in "secret" or alone giving the fact that the highest form of Catholic prayer is public it amuses me that we are told to pray alone. The word prayer jumps out too as in I need to pray more. Oddly or not oddly I do tend to pray alone either in the car or in a room away from my family so that I don't get any questions about what I am doing.
My favorite form of prayer is and has been Eucharistic Adoration mainly as I can be by myself. I've always been the leave me alone type of person not because I don't like people but I just like being by myself. So I guess I have always found a way to go to my room and pray. We were given an assignment of doing an Examen prayer in the style of St. Ignatius Loyola. We're supposed to do it daily at the end of the day so we can look over our day. I don't mind doing it, I just don't want to look at my life that way as I'll see how imperfect I am. I mean really who wants to see what they are really made of.
So our first reading assignment was Luke 5:1-11
"While the crowd was pressing in on Jesus and listening to the word of God, he was standing by the Lake of Gennesaret. He saw two boats there alongside the lake; the fishermen had disembarked and were washing their nets. Getting into one of the boats, the one belonging to Simon, he asked him to put out a short distance from the shore. Then he sat down and taught the crowds from the boat. After he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, “Put out into deep water and lower your nets for a catch.” Simon said in reply, “Master, we have worked hard all night and have caught nothing, but at your command I will lower the nets.” When they had done this, they caught a great number of fish and their nets were tearing. They signaled to their partners in the other boat to come to help them. They came and filled both boats so that they were in danger of sinking. When Simon Peter saw this, he fell at the knees of Jesus and said, “Depart from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man.” For astonishment at the catch of fish they had made seized him and all those with him, and likewise James and John, the sons of Zebedee, who were partners of Simon. Jesus said to Simon, “Do not be afraid; from now on you will be catching men.” When they brought their boats to the shore, they left everything and followed him."
We were asked to spend time with the scripture passage so of course my mind went straight to doing Lectio Divina with the passage. You know read it, think about it, read it again, think about it again and pray with it. Yeah, easier said than done. I read it and attempted to do Lectio but it wasn't the best effort. My thoughts alway turn to how human St. Peter is. Of course we discussed it in class and each person thought of something different. As I was reading the passage I thought of my past trip to Ireland specifically our tour of Donegal, especially the fishing village of Killybegs because when I saw the picture that is below, I thought of this Scripture passage. What, I am a theology major it makes sense. What came to mind as I read the passage was the stench of the net; it was nasty. So I went on to think well ministry can be smelly as it's not always easy and well dealing with teenagers does mean getting dirty literally and figuratively when you discuss the heavy hitting issues.
I always think of the USCCB Vocations video when I read this passage as well, it is called Fishers of Men after all.
We had a session on spiritual gifts and charisms trying to figure out what our individual gifts are. It was an interesting session which I will get into in another blog but the session ended with us getting an assignment of spending time in prayer so the next Scripture passage is quite appropriate.
Our second reading assignment is Matthew 6:6
"But when you pray, go to your inner room, close the door, and pray to your Father in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will repay you."
More to come on this later after I sleep and after I actually spend time with it in prayer.
Monday, September 8, 2014
This is what I will be up to for the next three years. I got a new laptop so I might actually be blogging more :)
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
So begins Lent 2014. This year I'm giving up junk food aka actually sticking to my weight watchers program and giving up the idea of drinking just for the hell of it which is really drinking to forget how crappy life can be at times. As usual I will add in Liturgy of the Hours and reading books. This year's books are Lenten Reflections from A Father Who Keeps His Promise by Scott Hahn and Lent With Pope Benedict VI: meditations for every day. This also means I might attempt to read the book that Scott Hahn's reflections are taken from but I might read any one of the books I have sitting in my room. I know it's a lot to add in but it's stuff I should be doing anyway. Of course there will be my Friday daily Mass and stations of the cross to follow that Mass. Our parish is offering Theology Tuesdays so I'll go to those and also attempt to to to Mass and the Lenten presentations at St. Paul's. Most of this is stuff I would and should be doing anyway so it's a lot of getting back to where I was. Mainly this Lent I want the dark cloud that seems to have a hold on my soul to go away but I know that's easier said than done. I also know that I have opened myself up to fail and I am fine with that as I know that Jesus fell while carrying the Cross but He got up and kept going so that's what I will do should I not be perfect at what I plan in doing.