Who am I?
My initial answer was "a child of God" I mean that's the easy answer. I used to say I was a teacher, long before I would say child of God. I am willing to admit that to myself and to the select group of friends that won't make sure of me for it. I guess that's the ultimate questions, who am I, what am I.
What gifts have I received from the Father?
Plenty, normally I go with my ability to public speak, to sing (in the choir, I am not comfortable to bust out on my own), to dance. My life, my gifts and talents, even if I don't acknowledge them or want to acknowledge them. I know the Catholic faith and can pretty much answer most questions tossed at me.
What activities do I usually use to define myself?
My former job, teaching, then again I always qualified it by acting like what I did wasn't really teaching. I'm a runner, well walker/runner, see even that I qualify. I have done two half marathons and many other races yet I feel like I have accomplished nothing. I use the things I like to define myself.
What is keeping me from seeing myself as a beloved Child of God?
Myself, God's not going to give up on me no matter how hard I make it. I don't know if I have issues seeing myself as a child of God, maybe there are issues with beloved, but not being one of His. That's my usual response to the odd inclinations of not wanting to go to Mass, I am His, and I am not leaving Him and His Church. Maybe I just don't see it fully.
Do I struggle with seeing God as a loving Father? Why or why not?
Sometimes, it stems from real life, not that God is imaginary, it just stems from knowing that my earthly father loves, but that at times it doesn't seem that way.
Take It to Prayer: I am willed, I am loved, and I am necessary. My God, help me to believe this.
You are a beloved Child of God. I can never lose the love of God not matter what. "Each of us is the result of a thought of God," Pope Benedict XVI asserted. "Each of us is willed, each of us is loved, each of us is necessary."
This is a question I don't seem to struggle with as much as the what are you seeking one. I guess I've come to terms with being God's child. The idea of being necessary is probably the hardest, who really needs me, I'm not anyone's mother or caregiver. I know people would miss me if I died, but I am not necessary to any of them carrying on with their lives.
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